Chapter 28
Sidoti
Nothing made sense anymore,I tried to comprehend but my mind wouldn’t let me. I couldn’t fathom the fact what Aubrey was telling me could be the truth about everything and it just broke me down. Where could I go? Who could I trust? The love of my life was a killer, a thief, a liar…was this true? So many things ran through my mind, I felt like I was in a terrible nightmare waiting for someone to wake me up.
“Sid, please…I’m sorry..I didn’t mean for you to get upset” he pleaded
“Leave me alone” I yelled, choking on my tears. I ran into the restroom after hearing too much of what Aubrey told me. I locked myself in and balled myself in a corner crying my eyes out. I felt so alone and helpless, not knowing what to do or what my next move was.
“Sid..please, I don’t want you to hurt yourself”
I didn’t say anything, I pulled my phone out of my hoodie pocket texting JoJo to pick me up.
Aubrey kept pleading and saying he was sorry for a good twenty minutes and then gave up. I then recieved a text back from JoJo saying she was outside waiting for me. I picked myself off the cold tiled floor and out the restroom, to my suprise Aubrey was sitting infront of the door. I walked over him back into the room I stayed to gather my belongings.
“Look, I’m sorry..I just felt that you should know” he said as he tried to grab my hand but I snatched away.
“Leave me alone” I gritted through my teeth, trying to compose my anger baling my fist.
“Sid, just listen to me…stay here and I’ll keep you save”
“SAFE?! KEEP ME SAFE! AFTER THE FUCK SHIT YOU JUST TOLD ME YOU THINK I WANT TO STAY WITH YOU!?” I yelled hysterically.
“I know, but it’s not save out there for you”
“You don’t know nothing about me Aubrey, so stop trying to save me!”
“I just don’t want to see you get hurt again…and you’re carrying a child too” he added
I was tired of hearing his voice, he wasn’t making me feel any better and I was about 2 seconds from punching him in his face.
“Sidoti, just stay one more night with me please…I can make everything better” he said softly as he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck.
“What the fuck” I cursed as I moved away from him.
“I’m sorry…it’s just, I care about you alot and you deserve so much better than this. Let me be the one to take care of you Sid, I love you girl.”
“Love me? You don’t even know me or what I’m about”
“So, I could get to know you”
“Listen, I don’t have time to do this, my friend is outside waiting for me” I said as I finishing packing my bag.
“Why, so you can go back to that nigga Eli!” he snapped
“And so what if I did?! This has nothing to do anything with you!”
“But he doesn’t want you Sidoti are you fucking stupid or are you just to blind to see?! This nigga kicked you out, sent your daughter back to that hoe and you want to leave me and go back to him?! After everything I told you about him!”
“Listen-“
“No you listen. That nigga is evil and fucked up, he killed his own best friend over some bullshit to move up with Rick, got his best friend moms living in his home and took my girl and turned her into some fucking hoe!”
I ignored his ranting and raving and continued packing my bag, JoJo had called me at least 10 times back to back. While clearing out my drawer I find a hard piece of metal tucked under, before I pulled it out to see what I continued to run my hand over it. To my discovery it was a gun. Aubrey kept yelling his pros and cons why I should stay with him and live a better life, while I’m conteplating on whether I should shoot him to get him to shut the fuck up.
“Are you fucking listening to me” he yelled as he grabbed my shoulders and began to shake me, and that’s when I took the gun and pointed at his face. His face went blank as he held his hands up.
“Sid…put the gun down” he said calmly
“No” I said as my hands trembled with my finger on the trigger. “I’m not, I’m soo tired of your fucking voice, you don’t know shit about anything. Just shut the fuck up!” I yelled, my finger slightly squeezed the trigger and Aubrey was scared shitless.
“Just…put the gun down” he repeated
“I will, put before I do….give me everything in your pocket” I demanded
“What?”
“NOW! DO IT!”
He frantically began digging in his pockets, pulled out his wallet and handed me 6 hundred dollar bills.
“And those credit cards and don’t even think about cutting them off”
“So what are you going to do?” he asked me as he handed me his credit cards.
“Since you want to help me so bad, I’ma use your money to get my shit together….I don’t want you Aubrey, I don’t want anything to do with you or Eli”
With the gun still pointed at him, I grabbed my bag swung it over my shoulder and began to walk out the room.
“Sid!” he yelled,
“What?”
“Be careful” he sighed
I nodded and left.
**
I had 6 hundred dollars, two plantium card and a gun layed out in front of me and needed a plan.
I’m pregnant with no home, no car, no family ….nothing except my three best friends, but they wouldn’t understand. So this time I was on my own, had to make the decisions to get everything I needed back in order. I had to be done with feeling sorry for myself and make things happen, first thing on the list was to get my daughter back.
“Sid” JoJo said as she knocked on the door
I quickly put the money, card and gun back into my bag and stuffed it under the bed.
“Come in”
She opened the door with a tray of junk food and something to drink.
“Aww JoJo, you didn’t have to” I chuckled as she sat on the bed with me
“I know, but you sounded so distraught on the phone, I just wanted to make you feel better” I smiled at her and hugged her tightly, these past week JoJo has been the one there for me. Maybe I should tell her about my plans, well what I’ve come up with so far.
As I opened the bag of Cheeto puff, I decided to tell her. “JoJo” I said, grabbing her attention away from the TV.
“Yea?”
“I need to tell you something”
